Why have I never been good at anything in life?

I have never been good at anything ever. I have no hobbies because of it, being bad at things is the most boring & unenjoyable experience there is but I never improve at anything either. I can't find enjoyment in anything unless I'm the absolute best or at least professional level, anything less is pathetic & unacceptable. Nothing interests me like what's even the point? I'll be spending many years trying to improve at whatever & given how that's went with other activities it'll be a complete waste of time. I played football when I was younger, practiced everyday, even went to a club, I was the worst player there, at school I was the worst player, the very fucking P.E teacher was okay with me not participating & even showing up for the class because I was so unbelievably bad at it... There's being the last person picked but with me no one picked me at all, I honestly hated the good players that were on my team & enemy team just because they were good at it. I also used to draw when I was younger but I quit that too cus I was terrible, I would get better for a few days then lose my skills overnight. The biggest example I have is the fact I have nearly 20,000 hours spent on shooter games & I have around 1,000 hours maybe more... All spent on practicing aiming & one of the main reasons I lose fights in these games is because my aim is absolutely terrible & the same thing I spoke on earlier I lose my skills overnight at them aswell, it ultimately is why I quit them. I have no dreams, no goals, don't care about them cus I'll never achieve them anyways. I know I have some super rare one of a kind genetical problem (or curse as I've called it) that is preventing me from ever being good at anything, I beyond despise talented people. I could never find an explanation for the problem so that's how I know it's something unique only to me. Why me? Why couldn't it have been someone else?