What now? Post psychosis.

I (M25) have no idea how to move on from the knowledge of the paranoid mental episode I went through and the horrible bullshit I put people through during those couple of months. It has almost been an entire year since the episode and, while I do feel better, I cannot find any solace. I severely messed things up with my girlfriend and both of our families. Every day I am somehow reminded and brought back to the memories of the beliefs I fell victim to, the stress that consumed me, and the pain/confusion I gave onto others. I feel like I am being looked at by family members as a crazy person. What’s the goal? Totally forgetting the entire ordeal to heal faster? I feel like I cannot grow as a person or ever be seen as a capable and levelheaded person with how stuck the memories of that traumatic experience is to me.