Wasted my life

I’ve sat here doing drugs for six years of my life fentanyl had a grip around my neck. And now my life feels extremely empty and dull, I’ve lost people that I should have never lost. And it sucks because I was so happy before I hit that trail to hell. I’m over a year sober now. But I look in the mirror and just still think about everyone that I took advantage of, I’m stricken with guilt and shame. My ex girlfriend of six years left me because of my drug usage. Honestly I’m just tired and wanted to say some shit. Not looking for sympathy just wanted to talk about my shitty situation.