The pressure to fit in.

When you are young, you are oblivious to the standards you'd have to fit in later in life.

When you do reach that age, you wanna fit in everywhere but there are certain requirements that you must fulfill.

I am so tired of trying to fit in. Being a certain personality. Being cheerful and funny. Trying my best to look pretty.

I am tired of seeking validation.

It has only led to wanting more, it's never enough. Whatever I have achieved, it doesn't bring me joy but leaves me wanting more.

I can no longer differentiate if I even fit in or not. I just keep trying harder.

In every single aspect. The impression I make on people, my looks, my body, trying to make people laugh all the time, going out and meeting people.

I just want time to stop. I feeling like not talking, moving or even want me existence to be noticed.

What should I do?