Struggling to Find My Way

Hey Reddit, I just need to let this out.

I’ve been feeling like a complete failure lately. My mind keeps telling me, “You can’t be a loser,” but it’s hard not to feel that way. I’m over 270k in debt, and I hate how much that weighs on me. I don’t like my work, I feel invisible around my boss and colleagues, and I can’t stop comparing myself to people who seem so much better off.

I want to be good at Speaking. I want to look better, feel better, and be someone I’m proud of. But I have ADHD, and it’s like my mind convinces me I’ll never get there. I feel stuck, lost in a mess of self-doubt and envy.

I’m not funny. I’m not attractive. I feel like I’m failing in everything I do. I know I’m lazy, and it frustrates me because I do want to learn and grow. But it’s like there’s always something in the way—my bad habits, my lack of discipline, my constant craving for dopamine.

I know I need to spend less, take time to heal, and work on myself. But honestly? I think I’m deprezzd. I’m overwhelmed by everything I want to fix but can’t seem to.

I don’t know, I just needed to get this off my chest. If anyone has advice or has been through something similar, I’d really appreciate hearing from you. Thanks for listening.