Social Hierarchy

I grew up in a hierarchical family where success and climbing the work / social ladder is very important. I know I wouldn't be alone with this and it's a fairly common thing in many families.

Unfortunately I have poor social skills and struggle socially. Despite my studying hard and becoming a lawyer, and working hard in the job, I have not moved up the work ladder and ended up an alcoholic by as early as my late 20s.

I'm now 41 single and consider myself lost in life.

At work and in family situations I'm very ostracised. I'm sometimes belittled even by children at family events or by work colleagues and it gets me down.

I've a few questions. is social hierarchy important in your life and do toy think social hierarchy is very important in general in life? Are you at the top, middle or bottom of the social hierarchy? I have what could be described as a fantasy of quitting my job and going into another line of work that isn't so competitive (possibly a lower paid job), while also distancing myself from my family. I'm 41 and single so technically it is possible to distance myself. Anyone ever done anything like that?!