Reflections in life + 2025 hope!

2024 really felt like such a protracted period of time yet so celeritous as well. When my family started cheering seeing the ball drop and the sight of my phone's clock officially having the "January 1, 2025" on top, it felt so insane dude. Time is sure wacky, but despite everything that has been going on lately, I try to be positive with any situation!

I am just fifteen so I don’t have the chance to drive legally yet, haven’t conquered the SATS, haven’t drowned myself in student debt, I have not been married living in a little shack in the middle of nowhere in Wyoming with seventy two kids to feed. I have not seen life at it’s fullest potential yet, my current worries really stem from being concerned with how my loved ones are, what people think in general, self image. And you know, scared of how the world will be in the future economically and socially. Admittedly I'm scared like I will throw up all over my sweater with moms spaghetti but there's no way backing up now, just gotta go forward.

I used to be real bitter, I was really exasperated on how much good things happen to such horrible people and vice versa. I used to hold many grudges and overall was so paranoid, hell I didn't even trust myself. But I learnt if I want a relationship whether it's romantic or platonic, then gotta learn to trust because if you don't have trust, then you don't have nothing, man. I focused on all the bad things and what was going wrong in my life, but now I feel even more determined to fix the potholes on the road and navigate to a better destination!

I am happy that I have parents. Even though they overwhelm me at times, I always tried to remain patient with them. After all they have fought so many adversaries so I can have the chance to thrive, ya know? They are survivors I tell ya! I'm grateful for my beagle. I am happy that I have a very loving boyfriend, I think he is really radical and has lots and lots of swag. (Jokes aside I love that man so much and I am grateful to get the chance to get to know him!) (Let me knock on wood three times, yoinks!). I am happy that I have the real amigos that whether the friendship been ten years old or just under a week, I am grateful for all the good times and when they were there when things was low low low like apple bottom jeans boots with the fur. I am happy for the chance to go to school and learn about triangle congruences, valance electrons, electron configuration, calculating average mass of isotopes, a buncha battles that America fought, and all that sha bang from what I've rememberedddd. I am grateful to have supporting neighbors of my side hustles when trying to get some good ole green Abe Lincoln's. I'm grateful to have a roof over my head that will protect me from mother nature's tears. I'm grateful I can listen to the Beatles and with how accessible it is to discover and listen to music all over the world. I'm happy to get to despite my condition not exactly will ever get better, well I'm glad it's getting more taken seriously and my teachers are very patient with me. I'm happy for carne asada, rice and beans and strawberry altoids. I am grateful to have legs so I can dilly dally, I am grateful for my arms so I can use em to draw and flex my muscles that are like definitely so huge in the mirror, I am grateful for my eyes despite my eyesight not being too good I'm glad for the invention of glasses. I am grateful for the Peanuts and animal bobbleheads. I am happy to play many instruments and groove with people and create everyday. I'm grateful to finally speak up about years of torment and now currently living in a safe environment. I am just really grateful, happy, and have a lot of love inside of me that I will want to share with everybody, ya know?

I have more things listed but who in tarnation will read all that, but man I just hope 2025 will be better for all of you guys in this lil sub reddit, all of you deserve as much happiness as everyone else. Things get tough some days, some days you feel sunny side up and some days you feel scrambled and like a piece of liver and onion flavored gum stuck on a shoe. Hopefully that makes sense, I'm no deep philosopher I barely know what I'm doing and saying half the time. But I genuinely hope you guys can find some joy this year and many many other years from now! Do that hobby you wanted to do so long, get that tattoo, eat from that place you wanted to try, send that text, hug your loved ones and if you don't have any try and make some new pals, there's so much to do and so little time.

Remember you are all loved and have a place in this interesting little globe!!