Need some support…

I grew up with a narc mom and my life was pretty miserable. When I was little, my parents got divorced. My dad was a good guy but after my mom left he started drinking. I lived with both of my parents in two different places and I tried my best to spend equal time with both… Fast-forward I met my husband at 25y and he was the love of my life. His parents are psycho narcs, and I wanted to ki*l myself after giving birth to our daughter, because their abuses were worse than ever in the most vulnerable period of my life. TODAY, I decided that I want to break up with my husband…he’s not the man I can rely on because I sometimes feel like he’s a narc too. I’m in pieces…and I don’t know what to do. I dont have anything and I have to go back to live with my mom. I love my daughter so much and I feel guilty for not being able to give her A FAMILY ! All my life I wanted…A FAMILY.