Moving on after seeing brutal deaths?

28 years old and I've been exposed to a very hard and pretty brutal life. I'm an American but I might as well have seen the equivalent of what I would imagine. Somebody who is the first responder or actively serving and a war sometime

At work 3 years ago I watched an inspector get completely flattened and pushed out under a giant plate of steel. It was completely and utterly shocking. His body looked like a tuba toothpaste. I could still remember the day completely.

2 years ago going to work at 4:00 a.m. on the highway I was coming up on an accident and it was completely shocking. The lady was thrown from her vehicle. 22 years old is it said on the online news article I found later on her body was torn to Gore all over the highway when I pulled up a female officer. Was Frank to clean going around the highway trying to consolidate her body parts. Shockingly enough. It wasn't the scene of Gore that Disturbed me the most. It was the driver of the vehicle who hit her standing there completely covered in her own blood frozen

One year ago I was installing a pipe hanger in a very confined space using welding equipment and a propane torch everything was going well until suddenly. The entire confined space was like on fire. Surprisingly, I only received surface Burns but I often have nightmares where I'm still in that room burning. I feel like this scenario impacted me more than the scenes of brutality in the previous few years, but living out here in Rhode Island has definitely shocked me