Life feels different... And I hate it.

I can't think much of a way to put it. But 2020 was amazing being in quarantine and playing games and watching movies/shows and talking to friends while screen sharing and etc just felt so amazing even before those times. During 2016-2019 just felt so amazing too.

Now life feels so boring even when I do try new things nothing feels as good as it did before. Back in the old days everyday felt like a holiday. Kinda like that weird nice warm feeling you get when its Christmas and you're excited to open your presents. Now that feeling is gone. It feel's like I'm just living day to day. It feel's like nothing is real. And maybe its just nostalgia but I don't know. Also the environment doesn't feel the same. Back in my old house everything felt so good and cozy but after 2020 it seemed so bland? Sitting in a room with my purple neon lights on while music plays doesn't feel the same anymore. It use to make me feel so calm. Now it just feels like a room with purple lights... If that makes sense? I've since moved to a new house and once again. I feel nothing. Everything seems lame. I've been feeling like this for 5 years now. I hate it.