Rest

I have been through a lot recently. And well, I am still through a lot. In fact more than before way more. It is making me crazy. I seriously need at least a week to rest and think about it but I can’t. There is just no choice. I can’t rest they won’t allow me. My condition is lower than ever now. I can’t even have proper life and they still don’t allow me cause I don’t really have any disease or something. Even is I do get some rest, the problem I have is too deep that I think even rest might not work at all. Even if it does it feels like it needs to be very long. I just don’t know what to do and I think posting this on Reddit won’t just give me the solution to an unsolvable question, still my last hope.