Life.

Hi Reddit, I am 18 years old and just recently graduated high school in 2024.

I have played soccer my entire life and was commited to play overseas for an academy team from August 2024 to May 2025. But some things went wrong. I went home early in Septemeber due to just an unsatisfying feeling. I didn't have good grades in high school and this opportunity was the perfect thing for me.

Now that I am home I tried to go play for my club team again and they were happy to have me back and then just decided to not start me and not give me the minutes I truly think I deserve. I was pissed off and tried my best and reasoned with the coaches and I made the overall decision to just leave the club and focus on my career and do school.

I feel like after I left Spain I really just threw my soccer career away and I do not know what to do now. I am currently not enrolled in community college and all I do is work now. I feel like a dissapointment towards my family and I really just feel down all of the time.

Is there any suggestions that you guys have?