I’m hurting deep down, and I can’t move forward in life.

I'm 20 years old. In third year college. Ever since I was 16, I would come home from school and do everything in bed and in my room. I don't do anything except waste away my life watching YouTube reels on my phone and laptop ON my bed. Like quite literally, nothing has been done. I have no drive or motivation in life whatsoever. I've gotten fatter, gotten lazier. I need help, don't know what to do. I'm so young with ambition, but just lost. I don't even have a simple job.

I'm driving towards nihilism and I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. My isolation drives me to a silent cry, and deep down it hurts.