I’m 22 years old and I feel like a f*ck up

d from coast to coast even abroad. It’s exciting at first but I’ve never felt fulfilled except for when I would visit NYC a lot. I felt so content with my life I remember I randomly wrote a list of things I was grateful for while on the train. But the city is very intimidating and I didn’t feel that it was my time. At one point I came across microblading which is permanent makeup and it’s a billion dollar industry so the money is there. But I can’t figure out how to get my first client through the door. Not a model for content but a real client. So I put that on the back burner and continue to move around the country. But let’s reel it back in as to why I feel like a fuck up. I was presented a job opportunity across the country and I drove from Ohio to Arizona for this job. A few days ago, they just fired me like I was nothing. At first I was upset but rolled with it because I already started training with another job. I finish HR training and at the end I was told that I wasn’t going to train on the floor for a whole other month. So now I don’t really have income and the lease on my car ends in a month as well. I can probably pay for half my rent and my car payment and after that I’m screwed. My mom can’t afford to help me in fact we got in a huge argument during my struggles and my dad doesn’t really want to help me either. While I’m dealing with this, many people my age are traveling the world and experiencing new and fun things. They just graduated school and just got a new car, getting engaged, having babies and even getting married and have good paying jobs. I’m scared I’ll grow up to be unsuccessful. I refuse to be a failure but I genuinely do not know my first step on how. I don’t know what path to take and I’m scared to take any path because I’m afraid I won’t be happy or I will regret it. I turn 23 in 30 days. Still no plan. I’m itching to find my purpose and my calling. I’m trusting God but in the meantime what do I need to do? How can I feel fulfilled.