i had the most horrific nightmare

so basically i’m going through bad mental health, with not really a stable support system. i don’t want to gloom things, but i just woke up from a horrible nightmare about my ex.

i don’t like showing my emotions at all to anyone because of abandonment which makes me spiral

my ex treated me horribly to say the least and traumatised me also cheated on her partner with me and got away with things that are just horrid, it triggered me now to just cry. i don’t really have anyone in real life to talk to, it feels like i have to suck everything up and just deal with it.

i just feel scared and with my mental health it hasn’t been great and with the weather has made things worse