I genuinely do not care anymore

I was going super negative while writing this and that wasnt my intention so I restarted.

This world doesnt feel real... Its hard to care about all the negative things that come up in life now because I feel like I 'crashed out' a long time ago and im just here until the ship burns to the ground as-if-were.

All the positive things in life are nice but it always feel like im celebrating in the Apocalypse of my own existence.

Hope this wasnt too dreadful this sub really sucks to read as it is lol