I feel like I'll never find love

Hi there, not a really happy post, sorry.

I believe it's a situation a lot of people are in. This is not going to really help, I just needed to talk about it to someone to, you know, release the pressure.

I'm 21F. I'm at that period of life when a lot of people around me have found love or have at least already experienced love, and here I am in the middle of everything. I've never been in a relationship. Eh, not even kissed a man. I've never experienced teen love either. Well, there was still this guy in my 1st year of college that confessed to me, but I just wanted to be friend with him (I didn't have any at that time). I tried dating apps too.

It took quite some time to find someone I was interested in (and who was interested in me !) and I finally got to go on my first date ! Since it was the first time, I proposed to go watch a movie (look, I now know that it was not a bright idea, but I didn't know what to do !!). But he didn't came. He didn't remembered to wake up and I ended up going alone (I paid my place in advance). I still gave him a second chance, but in the end there was nothing, no spark, no butterfly.

It's only after thinking about it again that I felt shitty. Not mad at him, but just disappointed. I was not even worth remembering.

Honestly I just want to feel loved. Just once. I'm a newbie, and don't know anything about dating or maintaining a relationship, I don't know how to kiss and I struggle to talk about my feelings. I don't want to hear those dumb quote like "better be single than with the wrong one" (I tried to translate it from french to english) or "he will come when you least expect him !". Y'all need to stop with this. You want to help us ? Just listen to us. Propose actual solutions. Do NOT say those things.

I often feel bad and hate myself for being jealous of my friends' relationship. I mean yeah, I'm happy that they found someone that treat them with love and care, and at the same time, I wished they were single like me because I hate to be the one left behind. Like I'm no longer a priority for most of them, and I hate that feeling.

I just want to meet someone and to be loved. Sometimes I cry alone, because why can't I be loved too ? Don't I deserve to be loved ? Am I not worth it ? And right after I feel like the ugliest person, and I wonder what's wrong with me ? Am I not attractive ?
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Idk who will read this. All I wanted was to finally talk about it (I don't want to annoy my friend with this...). And I'm sorry if it's on the wrong reddit (if it's the case, could you redirect me to the right one ?).