I burnt my childhood in computer games

Sorry for my grammar and other mistakes. I am not good in English, so my speech may be illiterate.

So, what was I going to write about?..

I wasted my childhood in a phone. I've realized it recently, but I was so shocked when I understood, that this games influenced on my life too much. The games were the point of my life. I didn't have other care but how to take much more time for spending it with phone. I liked playing the PvP games. All my life was the studying and games. And a little bit books. I didn't really like to contact with other children, I didn't have a good hobby. Because of games I had many conflicts with my grandma, for example, I didn't want to help her with housework before I finish a game, I could not pause it. Now I feel terrible because of this.

Less than a year ago I noticed that I can't really enjoy battles in phone. Yes, sometimes everybody has s tilt, but this statement usually goes by. Yes, it was and with me many times. But not in this time. I tried to get in the computer world, I played, didn't played, did the break, changed heroes, tryed to play my favorite old games... but nothing helped me.

Habitually I played , but I didn't enjoyed it. And one day I realized, that, maybe, I grew up.

But I lost the point of my life. And it is terrible to realize that point of my life were videogames. Now I am thinking: what I was doing in my childhood? I have nothing to remember, I have no skills in contacting with people, but I have an account in game that I will never need.

Now I am 16, I am trying to learn a language seriously (English), trying to draw, trying to do origamy, learning history and social studies intensely for exams.

Yes, games took away almost all my life. I regret because I was so stupid and obsessed and now I am going to LIVE this life. Still I have a feeling that my life is miserable and pointless, but I hope that this statement will pass by, like tilt.

Now I am trying to open my eyes and look on this real world and to contact with other people.

Thank you for reading this.