How do you truly feel about your life?

I’m not sure why I’m writing this post. Maybe because I feel lonely and sad how life has turned out.

I’m 34m. If you had asked me when I was 12, what my life would look like in 20 years, I would have never guessed what was coming.

When I was 16, I was diagnosed with severe body dismorphia. And this totally wrecked everything I was doing. I couldn’t even look people in their eyes when I was talking to them. I hid my flaws, and everything became a struggle.

Then at 23 I crashed completely and been isolated for 10 years to be exact. So at this point I don’t feel like I’m in life as everybody else. It’s like life paused in 2015 but not for everyone else. Life continued for everyone around me. People have children, families, etc. And I’m stuck exactly where I left in 2015.

I’m just wondering. For you people out there. Has life turned out the way you thought? Are you really happy? Or are more people experience these heavy emotions?