For those of you in your 30s and beyond who feel like you've fallen short in life, where do you find the motivation to keep going?

I am 32 and objectively a completely and utterly worthless pathetic failure at life. I have no friends. I have no relationships. I have no career and a humiliating job that I'm too scared to leave because I know I'll never get anything else. My only life "accomplishment" as graduating college with a worthless degree a decade ago through a miserable and useless college experience. The only family I talk to anymore are my parents, because I live with them as a loser does, but we barely speak anyway and they don't really care about the state of my life. I barely even have any memories, like my brain has just deliberately hidden everything.

If there's anyone here in the "life" subreddit who is in a similar situation, here do you get the motivation to continue going through every day? I have completely given up. Every day is just waiting for when I finally get the courage to end it. Everything is completely and utterly hopeless. Where do you people get your motivation from when you have nothing to give it to you? When you have no friends, relationships, family, career, or goals to achieve?