Do you ever feel like you wasted your life and struggle with jealousy toward younger people occasionally?

Just what it says. Lately I’ve been feeling like I’ve wasted my entire life. I’m 36, single, no children. I live in a sleepy area where there’s not a lot to do, so basically I work, clean, self pity, struggle with physical ailments (arthritis in my left foot and it’s really hindered my love for walking and hiking).

I’m part of the large group of people ordered back to work in an office 5 days a week and I am terrified I won’t be able to afford to go back to work 5 days a week (I already drive in 2) due to gas, car maintenance on my old car, possibly having to replace that car, etc.

I’m exhausted every single day. I read the sub rules and don’t want to trauma dump, but I’ll just say that existing day to day has been a struggle.

Does anyone else ever feel like they wasted their entire youth just getting by and now they have nothing to show for it? Every time I see younger people I’m like “oh man, they’re so fortunate they haven’t had the opportunity to waste their lives yet” (haha).

Some days I feel really alone in these thoughts.