am i cooked

this is pretty cringe but why not ok so im pretty introverted nd i just started college i dont like many thing besides relaxing and cars and fashion and yk the regular but im poor i dread working in a retail type of job to make money but i might have to i try to find a like stocking or cleaning job but i cant talk on the phone or theres always some random requierment i dont meet like i rlly want money nd like idk what to do but wtv like im not an ugly guy im pretty decent looking but i just cant talk or i try to it feels easy but i cant i have a nice gf but i dont have money so i cant be with her alll the time and yk do couple things also like my parents they care abt me and i love them but they r distant its not really there fault it might b mine but idk i just dont know what to do ik i should just keep trying and lock in but whats the point if i can never get where i want to be in my mind just happy no problems nothing stress just infinte comfort like i just want money and idk what to do "get a job" right okay i am but then what nothing changes im majoring in csd with literaly 0 interest in it and i use chat gpt for everything i only for the money am i cooking myself i feel like a bot im addicted to wed have no license and no money to get one im just floating to top all of that off im in buffalo somewhere with the worst scenery ever it depressing ik im yapping and this all easy to fix but hey thats what this is for i just typed more for this than id want to do for class