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I wish I was able to open a small little book cafe or work a regular job for a living but i’d definitely be seen as a useless waste of space like my family likes to call it. I’m currently in my last semester of college and I only went towards medical field because of my mom and while I do love it my mental health is deteriorating and i’m self sabotaging. I’m the eldest of my family as well so there’s always that pressure to be a role model to my siblings but i’m slowly losing myself and they can tell. Any advice on how to pull through??