why world was created the way it was

i smoked a joint after of long period and i a thought came to me about why we are here really what's the idea I mean real idea of what was god's intention of how it is what was main idea behind it. i just want to know to you know help him more like recently i ve been so lost for 3 years i had no social life i mean if you looked at me I was normal but inside i had chaoses in my mind anxiousness no confidence seeking aprovall etc. but it;s okay now i call it a time where i lost myself entirely to find greater self of mine so these 3 years of loneliness in mind and life and thinking why is it happening like but then i had so many blessings that know i understood but i want to know it if it matters i want to live exactly how god would be proud of me call it god call it universe or call it whatever but know that itwans us to be his friend and we will be much better