what to do when you feel like you don’t know where your life is going?

i don’t know where my life is going.

i like to do art since i was a kid, but my parents said it is useless and it does not make money, so i stop doing art and completely lose my ability to draw. i dream of becoming a doctor, trust me, i’ve study hard, but still, i failed my college entrance exam and completely ended up in a random college and a major that i never think i would get myself into.

this year i'm gonna be 20, but i just can’t see where’s my life is going, i don’t do anything except going to college and spent my days on bed with my phone. next semester, i have to do internship and i’m scared i’m gonna get rejected because i’m very passive (i saw a lot of my friends are very active joining club, organization, and participating on some competition).

how do you get up from this situation? i don’t need motivation, i just need people to slap some realization into my head that i need to take control of my own life.