what’s life without family?

i’m an 18m and have found out recently that i won’t be able to have kids due to a brain tumor i had when i was little and had been on testosterone since i was 14 which is why i wont be able to have kids. i also can’t get my license because im now blind in one eye too, which also destroys me because i have a huge passion for cars. no friends, never went to a party, never had a girlfriend. i dont have much in life in right now besides my mom and siblings and grandparents, i dont have any motivation of going on because i dont see the point in my future, i feel like its empty without these things and it makes hard for me to actually want a life ( i stay in all day everyday, no job, no college etc). dont necessarily want advice just ranting about it