What makes you feel alive?

I won’t trauma dump here as it’s against the rules and i don’t really want to, but lately (for the past 6 months or so) I’ve felt basically nothing. I’m never sad but I’m never happy. I just sort of go with the motions and all of my days just blur together. I want to feel something but I don’t know how. I want to find something meaningful to care about but I can’t. I’m just completely numb and detached from everything but i want to change this

What makes you feel alive? What do you care about most of all?