Were u able to let go?

What do you when you've been physically and emotionally abused by your family since the day you were born. Also taken sexually advantage of by one of family member when you were around 9 years old.Dad left when you were 5 years old mom took her anger out on you. Been bullied at school and never had any actual friends growing up. Now I'm 20 still struggling to move on and let go of the past but really seems impossible. Anyone here actually moved on from their past and has let go of the things that haunted them at night?