thing3 (got deleted of off r/rant)

i only just joined reddit to say what I can't to anyone I know irl, I've been living on my own for a year going to collage and have had enough saved to afford rent thus far. but by the end of December that will have dried up, I'm competing with every other student to get into classes that I'm only half interested in while everything cool is locked behind year long waitlists. i love writing its all i do on my spare time but any class for that is imposable to get into, really this has all felt pointless like I've learned nothing not for a lack of effort. and why do i do this?, for a chance at a shit job that will never allow me to live any sort of life, i do work on the side but for a while now every paycheck just feels worse. there's nothing in this world that money alone can seam to buy that I can truly enjoy for more than a few days and yet i watch companies consume our planet for everything its worth for what? a few dollars. i know I'm not alone in realizing just how much better life should be for everyone, if we only had a fraction of the tech developed for war and conquest there wouldn't be any need for oil or gas and truly we could live unified as one peaceful society. what is all this for in the end, power? a handful of gold coins as the world fucking crumbles around us all. I'm not Shure what to do next but when the money dries up I'm leaving somewhere beyond this chemical laden dystopia maybe into the woods maybe traveling abroad in whatever way I can. but if there's anything i wish for everyone to hear is i love all of you as each and every one of us breaths the same air ,feels the same pain and struggles in world ready to burst. hold each other closer than ever before leading into this next century, the problem will not be solved by the same energy that created it.