The pain of being different is too much.

Ever since I was a kid I was shy, introverted and quiet and because of that I have always struggled to form connections and make friends. People just never seem to like me, understand my introverted nature. The pain of being different is quite a lot sometimes, I have never fit in anywhere, found a sense of belonging.

When I was in school I was lucky enough to make some but in university I haven't had the same luck, I don't have any good friends in class.

Most people in class don't value me, overlook me. Some of them even laugh at me, make fun of me. They look down upon me I feel. It really makes me sad because I actually wanted to make friends with a lot of people here but I wasn't able to because they just weren't interested.

I feel really lonely looking at everyone else hanging out and having fun with their friends and how happy they are whereas I have to mostly spend all my time alone. I sometimes wish I was one of those social guys maybe then I would have treated better.

I have been an outcast for so long, I don't want to be one anymore. People tell me sometimes, that you just need to wait and you'll eventually find people who value you but nowadays it's really hard to find your people so I am losing hope that it will happen someday. I don't want to end up all alone in the future.

Sometimes I feel a lot of inadequacy about myself, that maybe I am not good enough to be liked by people and that's why everyone's choosing to avoid me, I start feeling like there's something wrong with me and then I just start feeling really bad about myself and find myself unable to do anything.