The family I've always dreamed of since I was a little kid.

I grew up in a VERY toxic household, my dad being violent in everyway possible, an addict ecc.. I always dreamed of a healthy, happy and peaceful family but I have never really got that from my own.

Then, I grew up and got myself into toxic relationships, they were addicting to me I loved the feeling, it didn't matter how much it hurt. I finally found a guy who was healthy for me, who was good, loving and all, I went and ruined it by turning the relationship toxic without realizing it, of course I ended up losing him. I felt and still sometimes feel destroyed that I let myself ruin something that could've been so good, that I hurt this guy so much but most of all that I realized too late.

I am finally starting to see what healthy is, what it looks like, how it feels and its all thanks to my mom and her boyfriend, thanks to my uncle and his girlfriend. My mom's boyfriend has three children (10 year old daughter and two sons of 18 and 15. The 15 year old is special needs but so so so loving.) We all connected the second we met, like we already knew each other for our whole lives. We joined their family and everyday now feels like that little girl in me is finally calm, not terrified to get home, she's finally happy and at peace. We have become a beautiful family that I've always dreamed and wished for and I couldn't be happier. I just wish I could share all of this with him, I wish I could tell him all about it, I know he'd be so happy for me. I wish I could live this chapter of my life with him by my side.

My uncle's girlfriend is an amazing woman who has helped my family and I during hard times even financially, shes helped my grandma when she was extremely close to passing, my uncle become a better person, the best version of himself with her by his side. Her family has become mine too, they're people who love to love and it's beautiful.

My dream of having a healthy family has finally become reality. My mom is finally happy and I have never in my life seen her this way, she deserves the world and little by little she's getting it.

I promised myself to never chace toxicity again, to never be the toxic one again and I'm finally able to do so after so much hard work. Life can be truly beautiful and I'm finally starting to see it.