Teenager problems

I just don’t understand the meaning of life this all started at 5th grade I was with my “friend group ” but they use me for the homework answers then I just left the group. When I moved into middle school I just started drama by owning school accounts fight accounts, shit talking, flaming people, etc and everyone knows it’s me who owns the accounts one of my fake friends just fucking revealed my address many people threaten to come over and “kill me” and “spray paint” my house obviously I know it was fake until I got added in a group chat recently it was about me talking shit about them but I do admit I talked a little shit about them then one of them just decide to leak my address for 5 people to see. Then one of them LEAKED the messages till the point that my whole ass church school knows. I just can’t with the teenage years I just can’t get out of drama I just want to get appreciated not being an outcast at my school. Everywhere I look i just see people side eyeing me like stop looking at me it’s uncomfortable It just makes me feel like I don’t belong in this school or town. I just need a hug and true friends