Struggling Bro

Hey Bro,

I just need to get something off my chest. Honestly, I’m grateful for my life – I really am. I feel like I could do so much more and take on new responsibilities, but I’ve got this demon inside me that I can’t shake. I’m addicted to w@@@and p@@@, and it’s messing me up. I keep telling myself I need to find something else to focus on, but it’s tough.

Here’s what I wish I could do:

- Pay off my debts

- Move my parents in with me

- See my brother settle down and start a family

- Get my dream house, car, and bike

But the reality is, I keep losing whatever money I get. I want to change my life, man. I want to hold onto the good parts of who I am, but this addiction is just draining me. I’m high all the time, always tired, my face looks worn out, and I don’t even laugh at the stuff that used to make me happy. Things have gotten so bad that I can’t even get it up for my wife, and sometimes I can’t connect with my kid because I’m just not there mentally. I hide all this from them, and I feel so guilty.

I know I’m the one responsible for this, and it kills me that I haven’t been able to spend real, quality time with my wife and kid. It hurts, man.

I need help.

I want to feel inspired again, like I used to before all this guilt and addiction took over. If you’ve ever been through anything like this or have any advice, I’d really appreciate it.

I just want to be better for myself and my family.

Thanks for listening, bro.