Social life

Throughout a lot of my life I feel like I’m so different and even now I work and go college I get bullied and basically am an outcast I struggle to relate or socialise and I’m not great at my trade so I get bullied for that as well even though I’m the only one who never gets a chance to get better. I’m not great looking or good at much and have been feeling really suicidal recently the only reason I don’t is because my brother did and it tore my family apart but I’m struggling so much and was wondering if anyone has any advice.