The Pressure to Succeed

Does anyone else feel an immense pressure to succeed? I am 21 (M) and i feel like right now i am on an invisible timer to get something going for myself.

When I graduated at 18 I was lazy,unmotivated and complacent. It stayed that way until literally a few months ago. I went to community college for some classes from 19-20 for welding because i had originally planned that’s what I wanted. Then took a year off moved out into a friends place. I just moved into a new place within the last 2 months. And for some reason I feel a huge pressure to succeed.

I have my foot in so many avenues right now for example I am still registered at the community college to take more welding classes, I also have an application put into another college for a bachelor’s in business, I also have a meeting with a local welders union here soon, to top it all off I have a screening with my local police academy coming up as well.

I have no clue what i’m passionate about all i know is I want to succeed in something I don’t want to be nothing. I have been very anxious about this and it’s become obsessive. I desperately want to find something that will make me feel like I have meaning.

I am constantly worrying about my future and if i’m making the right choices and it’s so overwhelming because I get told i’m young and I have time but it does not feel that way to me.

These past 3 years have felt like a total waste. I feel like I wasted so much time doing nothing but half assing college classes and spending unnecessary amounts of money while simultaneously not advancing my career or life in any way. I just want to make something of myself.

Any advice for feeling like this? Does it get better?