Seem to be living in an endless repeating loop.

The monotony of life is really getting to me. It’s Groundhog Day everyday, only without any of the fun bits. I’ve made it to 40 and I feel like I’m done. I don’t understand what motivates people to keep going. I know a lot of people here feel this way so I’m not saying anything new, but I need something more, even if I don’t know what that really looks like. For whatever reason (including some autistic traits) I really struggle to make friends. I’m sensitive and introverted, which apparently doesn’t get anybody anywhere. I keep hoping but nothing ever changes and I don’t know what to do.