Rant and future

Honestly lately I've finally been able to take a step back from myself and look in the mirror not literally Figuratively honestly I think I've been like this my whole life and no one told me it wasn't normal that I've never been normal adhd isn't even the beginning of what I have and I'm surprised with everything I've been told that I have that I'm still alive tbh tomrrow I start looking at resources for the next step in my life who knows what the futures bringing all I know is that living on my own my job and car and everything I needed this year and school is next who knows tho