Numb

I understand that life doesn't always go as you plan but lord, life has a way of making you not care.

Watching life and not being apart of it. Being happy and in an instant it's taken away. All I want is to be happy but not in the cards. I'm just here to help and be there for others. Not get that in return. I'm ok with it. I've watched people live better lives then me but I remember it can be worse. I don't have to be here.

Well, honestly sometimes I damn near don't. I want people in my life to be happy... but I don't feel they even care, they just think of themselves. But I have to endure. Let me stop my batching. No one cares..