My spectrum

I dont know y aasoon isi tharah se beh rahi hain.emotions is main reason.keeping expectations and breaking out in reaLity .mera childhood bahut acha hain with some patch works .har roj ka bhay hain kya hoga mumma ko .peaceful aur happy home keliye sapna banvaya till noww too.koyi ki galathi nahi hainnn.mein be strng hona chahiyen .meri dadi aur mama bhi hamare sath chod diyaa.thab mumma problms main thi.ye society,frnds,relatives sab ko yaad aatha hain when they want to think .and thinks to spend time as per their flexobilityyy.merii partner ko bhi mere khayal nahi hain.wo bilkul acha insaan hain.par meri choti choti aashayein ko nahi jaanthi .agar main us gayi ,uske like koyi na koyi cheez laathi huin .par wo kuch bhi nahi laaya .costly hain maanthi huin .par oo baath bolne par main samjatha na .no reassurance atall.i am hatting sabhii meri aaspass. ...aasoon behthi hain .koyi na koyi roj main in sabh cheezon ko hata saktha .aur meri dream personality without anyone jee saktha huin .bas kuch samayyyy.