My Football situation

Hello everyone, I've been recently using reddit to get different perspectives on challenging things that life has given us. Today I would like to ask for your help. Recently I've been playing football for the past 3 years and I am in my sophomore year. I've taken a break for school due to a family relative passing away. But as soon as I got back, I have realized that a lot of my teammates in the same year have got much better. In the football program at my school, all sophomores automatically go into varsity and not stay in JV. This makes it hard for intermediate players like me to join the main practices and only play in indi. Additionally, the program in our school makes me take classes until 4:40 making me skip indi during week days. I've been greatly losing motivation to go to practices and want to skip practices, especially weekdays, do you guys have any advice on my situation? Sorry for having a weak-minded question