my existence has no validation yet

Because I'm 27 and still a virgin. Never had a girlfriend or even kissed a girl. It's the one thing I wanted most, but never got. At least just once to finally experience it. Don't even want kids. I just want a life partner and to experience love, sex, cuddles, kisses, etc. I dream about it everyday. Girls never had interest in high school. Tried putting myself out there in the world. Feel so invisible. I'm short 5'5 with a babyface that still makes me look 19/20. I'm miserable. I'm bitter I missed out on young love. It's over and finally today, I woke up and felt the best I've ever felt because I have truly lost all hope. I've given up and I feel a sense of freedom that I've never felt before in my life. I never accomplished my ultimate dream in this life, and now I have nothing to lose. Freedom in losing all hope....was freedom.