Missing my childhood home 23 years after moving

My dad built the beautiful cape cod home in rural Michigan in the 70s and we moved to the suburbs in New Mexico when I was 12. I'm going thru a really hard time right now and I miss my home. I drove past it 3 years ago and thought that would put it to rest. It was not my home anymore. But every time I get sad, I want to go home. That was my home. I have a house here, married with kids and dogs... but I miss my home and I don't think it's normal to feel this amount of sadness over it. I went back to Michigan 3 years ago as part of an emotional healing event after a really bad time in my life and I'm in another bad time and I want to go back. I fear I'll never get over leaving my home. I dream of buying it when it's for sale again but that will never happen. How does one get over something like this? I've even found out who lives there now and is on my Facebook friends. I added them a couple years ago. They said I can come by if I'm ever in the area. I don't know how to close this book. It is overwhelming me. Sometimes I'm able to accept it and put it in the back of my mind but certain things trigger them to come back. I just miss it so much.