Male 31 stage 4 esophageal cancer

I was diagnosed with stage 4 esophageal cancer back in may. I’m currently on round 9/12 chemotherapy. It was the most surreal experience of my life when the oncologist told me I had cancer. I’ve lost about 80 lbs now which is depressing.

Being faced with my own mortality at such a young age has made me realize what is important in life and what is simply not. Life is way too short for anxiety and self doubt. Cancer can be an extremely isolating disease but I feel I’ve learned a lot about my self