Life sucks...

I’ve been grinding day and night, chasing dreams with everything I’ve got. Building skills, pushing limits—just trying to get better. But then I open social media, and suddenly, I see people miles ahead—doing the same thing I struggled with for two hours, in just two minutes. And it hits hard.

I started all this with the belief that hard work would pay off. But somewhere along the way, hard work became my comfort zone. It’s all I know now. There’s nothing else in my life except this constant cycle of working and building.

And the worst part? I started judging everything around me based on productivity. If it doesn’t contribute to growth, it feels like a waste. Even relationships. I began to see them through the same harsh lens: “Does this add to my success?” If not, I push it away. And in doing so, I end up with neither success nor connection. Just a strange emptiness in between.

Sometimes I feel like throwing it all away—doing nothing, wasting time—just to escape. But then there's this fear. The fear of becoming average. Like everyone else.