LIFE IS SUCH A CRUEL JOKE NOTHING MAKES SENSE !

I'm posting this on my burner account because my friends and family don't know I'm an angry midlife crises unfertilized woman who hate life right now, so please enjoy my ranting.

P.S. I'm 26, living in with my husband of 8 years, but feel annoyed every time he wants us to try for a child because life is shit and depressing to have a child into this world with.

Being forced to being happy with these thoughts in mind since you were born: being married, friends, community, protection, and love, but what if you have no love, no commitment, no friends, no happiness? I feel trapped again in this endless shitty cycle of existence we call life.

I'm SO SICK, SO SICK, SO SICK, SO SICK of everything!!

Everything makes me disgusted as fuck when I see lies on the media daily, on the news, in politics, in the justice system, in the messy world, how happy people can get and lie a lot that things are okay when its not for many, people are so rude all the time these days, rent is so high, shit is so damn expensive, friendships are so damn shallow, everything is about money, privilege, status, fame, etc., people care about how you look or if you are reliable to them...

Even asking for a person to just understand you feels like you're asking for too much, people ghosting like it doesn't offing matter, and when you want support people misunderstand or take things out of context WAY TOO much.

I hate how things are meant to be beautiful, yet it's an actual literal hell...

LIFE IS HELL, LIFE IS PAIN, FUCK YOU LIFE, FUCK THIS SHIT, I HATE EVERYTHING!