Kinda sad this Thanksgiving

I’m particularly sad tonight. For years, I feel like I’ve poured everything to relationships: whether familial, friendship or romantic. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving in the US and I’m going to be spending it alone with my partner. The last couple of years, I’ve always invited friends, colleagues or family over. One year I don’t feel like doing much and no one even contacts you.

I know it’s not a big deal but it kinda touches my sore point in life. I’ve struggled to develop profound relationships, despite knowing that people generally do find me pleasant. I don’t like feeling so desperate but it just feels sad some days.