Just over a month away from 35

I'm not even sure where to start. One day I'm 25 with lots of money in the bank, my own place, a high paying job, childless, quite fit and having loads of fun with women and going out with friends.

Now here I am a just over a month away from 35, back with parents...again...after another failed relationship, £13k in debt but one brilliant young son to another old relationship of yesteryear. That's the one positive of the last decade for me. I never wanted kids but my word he keeps me so happy even if I do only see him at weekends.

Other than that it's been pretty miserable - family court battle, accused of dv, gambling problems, lack of real interest in doing anything with friends, feelings of what is the point?, suffering and putting up with lack of respect from most recent girlfriend due to how last one before her ended. I heavily overcompensated trying to treat her like she could do no wrong....how wrong I was. I lacked self-respect and I'm not proud what I put up with.

I've just broke up with said recent girlfriend (and longest relationship) of 3 years. For the right reasons as above but it doesn't hurt any less. I'm not sure where this leaves me at 35, I know right now physically I look like shit and money wise..well...that's shit also. I lack real motivation at work right now also, get bored easily. Even now I'm writing this when I should be coding. On paper, I know I need to get fit, rekindle old friendships, make new friends and get the debt paid off and I'm fully aware my old 25 year old self would be so disappointed in me. I just don't know how to keep picking myself up off this floor every time life seemingly goes to shit. I keep thinking I'll take a year off for myself, get jacked and debt free but it's so much easier on paper than it is the reality.

Has anyone been here before? How did you cope?

Yeah thanks for reading I guess and happy Friday.