i wish my life felt more relevant

i feel and know i contribute very little to society. to be honest i really only cause issues. im a college dropout. was living at home for a while. had to deal with an alcohol addiction that hurt my family. worked minimum wage jobs. i’m finally feeling the shame of it all. even my social life is horrid and lacking. i wish i was doing more important things, like idk organizing events, owning a business, making a creative piece that speaks to others. but i barely have any talent or qualifications. i just work my minimum wage job where im replaceable. i wonder what my purpose is here. there has to be something more than this. i envy those with actual relevance and impact to the world.