I’ve been struggling many years. No job, no money, no friends, no boyfriend, no business success, no way out of misery. Keeping a positive attitude gave me nothing.

I’m 24 years old, a university student. (Where I live you don’t go to college at 18).

I’ve been having many struggles in the last 5,6,7 years.

1. No job this year. I couldn’t find a job that would fit with my college schedule, when you study 4 mornings and noons in the week, most places want you to work during mornings.

2. No friends and no extended family. I only have my mother and sister as friends but that’s no enough. I don’t have grandma, uncle, cousin, someone who you can enjoy life with, go on road trips and meet in the weekends. I’m trying to understand why in every setting- high school, military, college, not a single person wanted to be my friend. I tried to be helpful, positive and kind. I’m a person and listens intently and doesn’t try to one up or be conceited. I showed new people around, I gave students compliments in front of the professor, I payed for someone’s printing. Nobody returned any favor so I stopped.

3. I keep being defamed and attacked no matter what I do. Girls were fighting with me over seats, these fools wanted me to give up my seat for them (1 example). And people befriended them! These evil and aggressive mean girls!!!! I heard people gossiping about me, with things that are not true. A group of people harassing me and attacking me happened to me dozens of times in life. Superiors did nothing. I defended myself and showed confidence but it didn’t help. It’s painful.

4. Bad reputation. No one even asked me “is it true?”. It’s like people believe lies so easily. And then you get painted the villain and no one wants to come close to you so your bad reputation won’t stick to them.

5. No money. My mom is a single mom, we live in poverty, our kitchen is broken, our shower is fucked up, I can’t afford to go out a lot. Even a restaurant is expensive so I have to stay inside most of the time which causes boredom.

6. No man is interested is me. Not a single man ever tried to hit on me (I’m a woman). No one came to me and said “let’s go get coffee sometime?” Something so simple and small, that every 17 year old dude in a Netflix movie does. I’m 24 and never been in a relationship.

7. My business failed. I even tried to start a business but over 6 months of marketing on instagram I didn’t even get one client. I studied marketing in a course, I read marketing books, I got marketing consulting from an expert and yet nothing worked.

8. No academic success. I worked my ass off on projects and things for college, I was so sure I’d score 90+. But many professors undervalue me. I got the lowest grades of my degree so far with 70,80, 79 etc which aren’t that awful but are the lowest amongst class.

I even posted a question yesterday about a dude I had crush on but got engaged to someone else despite showing interest in me. It’s a little sad how he never even tried to get to know me.

I don’t know how to change my life. I tried many things but nothing is working.