I've accepted that I have body dysmorphia, how can I recover?

Hi guys!

I recently saw a post of someone talking about ugly they were, and when I checked their profile I was amazed, at how pretty they actually were, and they had been posting things like that for over a year.

It made me think that maybe this is how some people felt when checking my own posts.

There's no doubt in my mind that I'm ugly, and that's not even the low-self esteem talking, that's just me being honest based on personal life experience.

BUT

I guess that I'm being harder on myself, more than I should.

I don't want to be on a relationship, I don't want to love myself. I just want to be at peace with having been born like this while others won the lottery and I'm doing my best to not fully rot.

I don't want to abandon my life (yet) so I would appreciate if you could give me advice on how I could achieve this kind of healing, thank you.